Panic, dread, anxiety, shame, unrest, sadness, failure, stress, discomfort, fear, pain, becoming overwhelmed, staying overwhelmed, attachment, overthinking: these are common visitors to my body currently. Sometimes they take turns, sometimes they all come to visit at once. They control parts of my body intensively. i can barely type for longer than a couple of words. i want to get away, i know i can’t. It's too much. i sadly require reductions. i won’t be able to keep my shapes together without them. They (my shapes) are changing too intensely, and there are other directions that they need move in but cannot currently because of my visitors. To be clear: they are not bad visitors, they cannot be, because this is not my house. My body is not (my) property, it is a collection of channels and deltas. But what i do require currently is to limit the flow of some channels. It is neither in my right nor in my power to close any of them. They do not belong to me, they do not belong to anyone. But what i can and must do is redirect my attention (one of the few things i have a modicum of actual control over) away from my visitors and towards my inevitable work.