i most hope to write something as outrageously and furiously queer as 'The Countersexual Manifesto' and 'Testo Junkie'. i most hope to write something about how the body, our bodies, can become so much more, can become surfaces, platforms, assemblages of wholesome connections in every conceivable and not-yet-conceived direction. i most hope to write something that causes that surge of delight and psychoerotic energy in myself and others that some of my favorite writings have managed to materialize with/in my body. i most hope to write something that draws attention to the outside, to the absolutely necessary, but also fragile externalities of any existence and to the intimate interdependencies of becomings that require continuous care and nurturing.