Points of no return astound me sometimes. The blocking of some channels of possible existence and the in a certain moment in time almost irrevocable opening and flowing of other channels in their places is difficult to comprehend. i know there is no way back / the way back is blocked, but what exactly is blocking it? There they are, the answers to my question: the actual contents of the passage of time and the unstoppable and irrevocable contamination they effect. But in this case having the answers doesn't lead to security or certainty, how could it? i don't know the answer to that question, and i'm highly unsure if i would want to know if i could.